...life's sad...
it's not that i'm depressed. or even just sad. but it is, isn't it?
*life's sad*
there are so many things that make people sad, day to day. in the past week, everyone i know has cried or come very close to crying at least once. even if they haven't told me specifically, i know. It makes me wonder.
What are tears? little bubbles of emotion, flowing out or your eyes? but sometimes they don't stop. and even when they do, that doesn't mean that you are emotionless now.
This week I kept saying "everyone be happy, its almost over". but, that doesn't help. there will always be more "drama". and "anguish".
Today was a pretty good day. i should be telling you all about the funness. but i really do have to think about this, and thinking out loud (okay typing-wise) is better. Today has made me both go back to my childhood, and realize how far away from it i am. and how close. I want to lie on the grass with best friends and stare up at the stars. (maybe saying "i dunno, what do you wanna do?" arthur!) I wanna stay up all night and sing, and talk. I wanna know that people are there for me, but make sure they know that i am there for them. I wanna hug people i've never hugged before....just for the sake of hugging them. wow i feel like julie. hehe that's okay. she's sorta cool.
I want everyone to be happy. and although i know that that's not just gonna work like magic : noam says be happy and everone is, they (meaning whoever is reading this, and bajillions more people) should know that i want that. it helps if you know some people that want you to be happy. not because its annoying that you are depressed, but because when you are sad, they are sad. there's a hebrew song about that. its about a little girl, who is the "prettiest girl in school". Sung by her mom. and she says "when she smiles, I smile too, and when she sad, i don't understand, how it is possible for her to be sad, because she is by far, the prettiest girl in school." Except its wayyyy more poetic. and pretty. I should play it sometime.
Reminiscing is what makes me the most sad of all. its really hard to think about what used to be good. and how, even if things are wonderful (i love my life, i really do), they were good back then. better? you never know. so many things have changed, i have given up, moved on, written people in, erased some. so its those friends that you ALWAYS think of, every time you reminisce, even if they are new friends and just pop into your head, that are the truest friends of all. and i hope/know we all want each other to be happy.
We do. I love you all. goodnight. (much better)
P.S. yeah this wasn't too...uplifting. don't forget, life's very happy too. ;)
*life's sad*
there are so many things that make people sad, day to day. in the past week, everyone i know has cried or come very close to crying at least once. even if they haven't told me specifically, i know. It makes me wonder.
What are tears? little bubbles of emotion, flowing out or your eyes? but sometimes they don't stop. and even when they do, that doesn't mean that you are emotionless now.
This week I kept saying "everyone be happy, its almost over". but, that doesn't help. there will always be more "drama". and "anguish".
Today was a pretty good day. i should be telling you all about the funness. but i really do have to think about this, and thinking out loud (okay typing-wise) is better. Today has made me both go back to my childhood, and realize how far away from it i am. and how close. I want to lie on the grass with best friends and stare up at the stars. (maybe saying "i dunno, what do you wanna do?" arthur!) I wanna stay up all night and sing, and talk. I wanna know that people are there for me, but make sure they know that i am there for them. I wanna hug people i've never hugged before....just for the sake of hugging them. wow i feel like julie. hehe that's okay. she's sorta cool.
I want everyone to be happy. and although i know that that's not just gonna work like magic : noam says be happy and everone is, they (meaning whoever is reading this, and bajillions more people) should know that i want that. it helps if you know some people that want you to be happy. not because its annoying that you are depressed, but because when you are sad, they are sad. there's a hebrew song about that. its about a little girl, who is the "prettiest girl in school". Sung by her mom. and she says "when she smiles, I smile too, and when she sad, i don't understand, how it is possible for her to be sad, because she is by far, the prettiest girl in school." Except its wayyyy more poetic. and pretty. I should play it sometime.
Reminiscing is what makes me the most sad of all. its really hard to think about what used to be good. and how, even if things are wonderful (i love my life, i really do), they were good back then. better? you never know. so many things have changed, i have given up, moved on, written people in, erased some. so its those friends that you ALWAYS think of, every time you reminisce, even if they are new friends and just pop into your head, that are the truest friends of all. and i hope/know we all want each other to be happy.
We do. I love you all. goodnight. (much better)
P.S. yeah this wasn't too...uplifting. don't forget, life's very happy too. ;)
