...fudge...

hell month to the max on ice.
i'm not even kidding. hell might actually be better.
school sucks.
life sucks.
i have gotten <5 face="georgia">last night i got 3.5
and i had a bio test
which i got an Aish thing on. maybe.
i like writing in fragmented list type bloggy things.
i don't know what to do.
parents
friends
life.
uuuuuurg.


w00t for vagueness, nothing to post. love you all. meh.

*haha the meh wasn't to the love you all, but the fact that this post and ma vie sucks....to the max on ice. without the ice!

...omfg california dreamin'...

w00000000000000000000t.
that was so fun (not typing all the zeros, going to california. although zeros are fun too.)
*singsongy voice* I went to stanford! lalala. Man, it was fun.

Hmm i went away for a while, and lost most enthusiasm for talking about cali...especially since no one is here. i really hope this thing isn't the movie that colette invited me to...class sin city viewing? that would suck. because i was so back in time. :(. ohhhh well. i get to BLOG instead. blogging is fun fun fun.

omg, tomorrow is passover. yuummmmmm. so good. it is amazing how wonderful of a holiday passover is. i am truly sorry that you are not jewish. not to be racist...religiousist...but it really is cool.

do you believe in magic? in a young girl's heart....that was on the radio. omg the MOST EXCELLENT radio station evar. it was beatles and stuff, plus random other songs that ALL turned out to be good. really good. ones that i knew all the words to without knowing who sang them. dude, i sang the jimmy huggett song....DOO WAH DIDDY DIDDY DUM DIDDY DOO! * well i'm hers, she's mine, wedding bells are gonna chime* haha okay sorry...adrenaline! it was excellent, because we were driving on the golden gate bridge with the best weather it has seen...we were so lucky, and guess what song? I FEEL FINE. and it was like yes i do buahaha i could conquer TEH WORLD with my good mood. awesomeness. i also attempted phoneaim...but it failed several times. like when my father was there (sorry ariana and judy)...and when the plane people said we had to turn off all electronic devices (sorry ariana and domier) and then the stupid hotel room had no reception so i went to the pool area to "read" ( hey mo and colette!) that was fun. and the bar person seemed to think i was over 21....hehehey i don't complain! ha, jjk, i'm not dumb :P. sooo yeah that was a random paragraph about california.

we saw horses on the way and i tried to take a cell phone pic but it didn't work. (sorry becca). and i got slightly sunburnt, my mom noticed. my dad disagrees, but whatever. when your hand makes imprints on your skin....yeah. it doesn't hurt though, and mayhaps will turn in to a tan. (please don't peel, please don't peel yuck yuck)

yeah so maybe i should actually say something about stanford itself...it was cool. EVERYONE HAS BIKES. more bikes than students...o.O. and it was nice. the campus is big and slightly confusing...but if i am able to get myself around u of i, which i am, i can do stanford. its soooo green. and hilly and sunny. which is happy.

i need social life, spending 3 days without seeing anyone you know except your father is bad. i was in a surprisingly awesome mood the whole time though. very proud of myself for that. i love you all though! i missed you! and i want to talk to you! and people are neither home nor online! why not! i am going to keep putting exclamation points on the ends of sentences because its fun! why not! (why not...why not, take a crazy chance, why not....why not, do a crazy dance. if you lose a moment, you could lose a lot, so whyyyy not....why not.) cr00t for hilary duff quoting. alright this is getting to be as long as the ariana email, though hopefully oodles less depressing? oh god way hopefully. :( i hope i didn't make this blog sucky now. :(. ugh. well, the point was, i should stop writing. lala.

love, a slightly happier and tanner noam.

P.S. not really tanner at all, i just wanted to say that. i don't really want to be tan though, i realized on my trip that there is normal skin color, and then there is I TAN A LOT skin color. guess which one is better? yeah. ew. alright toodles.

...humdedum...

Yesterday my ooncle showed us a video he found of my grandmother and i when i was...4ish. Now while usually i don't like myself in movies, and i don't really think of myself as that cute as a little kid....in this, i was ADORABLE. it was soooo cute. and i <3ed>

As the title implies, nothing to post...ehem that is not saying that nothing is going on, no sir. Although, my father says that if i don't get a good score on the SAT (whatever that means) i will have to quit dance completely this summer. that is terrifically devastating, you don't even understand how much. i suppose i should be quite bored and unhappy without it. haha that reminds me of jane austen style....PASTICHE. which sounds like a yummy pastry with rasberry filling, no?

So yeah, if anyone i was talking to was surprised at my abrupt signing off AIM yesterday...that is why, hopefully my father does not uninstall it as he threatened. that would suck just a bit. well, if he does, at least i have old conversations to read through to make my day. *cough* not.

Yesterday we also had a halva party. outside. and yummy. mmmmm. and i felt really israeli. w00t.

seeing as this blog remains both public and semi-happy, there is nothing left to say. byebye

...life's sad...

it's not that i'm depressed. or even just sad. but it is, isn't it?
*life's sad*
there are so many things that make people sad, day to day. in the past week, everyone i know has cried or come very close to crying at least once. even if they haven't told me specifically, i know. It makes me wonder.

What are tears? little bubbles of emotion, flowing out or your eyes? but sometimes they don't stop. and even when they do, that doesn't mean that you are emotionless now.

This week I kept saying "everyone be happy, its almost over". but, that doesn't help. there will always be more "drama". and "anguish".

Today was a pretty good day. i should be telling you all about the funness. but i really do have to think about this, and thinking out loud (okay typing-wise) is better. Today has made me both go back to my childhood, and realize how far away from it i am. and how close. I want to lie on the grass with best friends and stare up at the stars. (maybe saying "i dunno, what do you wanna do?" arthur!) I wanna stay up all night and sing, and talk. I wanna know that people are there for me, but make sure they know that i am there for them. I wanna hug people i've never hugged before....just for the sake of hugging them. wow i feel like julie. hehe that's okay. she's sorta cool.

I want everyone to be happy. and although i know that that's not just gonna work like magic : noam says be happy and everone is, they (meaning whoever is reading this, and bajillions more people) should know that i want that. it helps if you know some people that want you to be happy. not because its annoying that you are depressed, but because when you are sad, they are sad. there's a hebrew song about that. its about a little girl, who is the "prettiest girl in school". Sung by her mom. and she says "when she smiles, I smile too, and when she sad, i don't understand, how it is possible for her to be sad, because she is by far, the prettiest girl in school." Except its wayyyy more poetic. and pretty. I should play it sometime.

Reminiscing is what makes me the most sad of all. its really hard to think about what used to be good. and how, even if things are wonderful (i love my life, i really do), they were good back then. better? you never know. so many things have changed, i have given up, moved on, written people in, erased some. so its those friends that you ALWAYS think of, every time you reminisce, even if they are new friends and just pop into your head, that are the truest friends of all. and i hope/know we all want each other to be happy.

We do. I love you all. goodnight. (much better)

P.S. yeah this wasn't too...uplifting. don't forget, life's very happy too. ;)

...Bibbidi-Bobbidi-Boo...

There's a plane flying REALLY low. I guess we are near the airport.
Dude. WE ARE GETTING A TRAMPOLINE! Childhood dreams fulfilled to the max on ice! My mom says we will probably be able to get it this weekend. And if my plans work out, I should have no homework but math-studying...so sunday is practically free? As of now it is supposed to be cloudy and 65 ish...so that's okay. Outside activities would be fun. And helpful to certain friends that i know *cough*. No one comes to mind.

So yeah. physics quiz was decentish i think. so that's good. and yeah blah blah school. yesterday was SO good though. best day ever. I seriously haven't been that happy in months. it was crazy.and then blah blah dance and i watched the game. and my parents were SO annoying during it. they were really pessimistic. so they made them lose of course, and a disproportionate number of people were mourning today at school, and it wasn't for the pope. there are two candidates for the pope that i approve of now: pope john paul george, and the jewish guy. actually i don't really care. but passover is coming up...BEST HOLIDAY EVER. i mean seriously there is nothing better than it. great food, great people, great memories/sentimentalities, great fun/games...great presents hopefully. great "i am jewish" feeling. did i mention great food? And batia claims it is in fact going to be our families together once again, at least for the first seder. so let me reinforce great people.

Ugg i have to go to dance very early today, cuz my dad is out of town so we have to pick teh brother up. woohoow. Lalalalalala. k bye.